The myth of voluntary work

It is more than two years that I ‘ve been working with a group of 7 (!) more people for a community website. Now it is obvious to me that these people have failed to work together. As a team.

Quite unexpectedly the problem is not targeting to the same direction. The problem is the fact that we agreed on an axis of voluntary work of each other and it never happened. Two years of waiting for some people to act is a long period of time. I have failed to maintain the spirit of the team high and lately I ‘ve been arguing, mumbling and grumbling all the time. I am sick and tired and I am about to underestimate the work done so far. Most of all I have the feeling that I must defend the people who work because someone should defend them!

When you have seven more people to count on you should feel comfortable. The amount of work is low and the crucial decisions are taken after a lot of thought. Risks are limited. None of this happens and I wonder if there was any single moment that I had this safety feeling.

I can’t accept the denial of some members of the team to help the rest of it. I can’t accept being ignored by these people. I can’t force people to leave the team because I feel that this project belongs equally to all of us.  Neither can I leave the team.

So this is a deadend.